Today, I solemnly and sincerely pledge that, I will always, keep going. Cus you guys noe why? Life, is like a bike ride. Or rather, for my case, and i know a few of my friends', a rollerblading experience.
cus once you start, you keep on goin, and goin, you dun look so far ahead, cus you might lose ya grip, but dun look down so often, cus you might miss out on the beauty of evrithin goin on arnd you. You start slowly, at a step at a time. and if you fall, dun give up! smile! cus you already haf gone past the rough parts of ur journey. after u take a lil baby steps, you gain ur momentum, you learn to keep things steady. if u start moving ur legs apart, u might just fall and hurt ur ass reeal hard. if u keep swinging ur hands in the air like a sparstic chicken, u might also get that prettyboy arse a lil bit sore. (= you keep on going. no worries if you think youre gonna fall. do what they tell u to do. lean forwards if you feel ur center of mass getting the better of you, and youre back on track. voila. you noe, that if you pause, u will haf to start back from scratch all over again. but in life, sumtymes, u will meet a lil, 'hump'. on the road. a lil obstacle. but why fear. a few of us will say, uh, lets haf a u-turn then, cus i dun feel good abt the hump. these are the people who do not dare to face the harsh realities of lyfe. there are others, who are a lil smarter. they go RounD the hump. smart people, but how often are you gonna do that evritime u face an obstacle? whereas the rest, the people who have the courage to overcome whats ahead of them to pursue whats best for them, they attempt to cross over. these people might not a hundred percent of going over the hump so easily. they live in the fear that theres a high chance they might fall over, but they do still try. kudos to all those who have overcome the "humps" of your lives. i lift moi hat off to you. remember, just keep it going.
so today, i started off the sunny morning with a lil bit of good deed. heheh, strange, faizal never seem to do anithing good eh. but yeah, i woke up early, and got rushed to school. thing is, theres no school for the week!. but what was i doing there? aha! study of course! ahahks wah lao, O levels in... one month's time you noe!. so me and denan were at school by abt 7.50, and after passing the mp3 to Shingkie, we went for the school gates. but guess what people, Deen and I and Sk found a cute , lil, pink purse, outside the school gates. waaaaaahhh, summore, after we rummaged thru, we found, like about 25+ worth of cash! we nearly wanted to split the money among the three of us, with SK being the noballs, saying, no dont, we must return this to e office!! and denan comtemplating over wetha we shud really split the money among us, after all, we din noe hu it belongs to. so, as usual, i sat, "on the fence", letting the both of em decide. however, my itchy finger very intchy one, must probe deeper into the purse, just to find the identity of the owner of the bloody purse. it belongs to a temasekian!! wahahahaaaaa.... we missed our chance of becomin 8bucks richer for the day... but still, we handed the thing over to.. our beloved Mr Cuthbert. *imitates Cuth* "The things is... you guys cannot enter the school hall during examination... yada yada.." so we spent half our time being lectured abt hw good we lilo kids are to be so honest to hand in the stuff, and us getting the very first merit point in our lives in temasek. apart from denan, that is, who got one merit point somewhere before for returning a lost school badge which he SearChed for on the grounds just to get the one merit point. (= ahahks. so yeah .
so after that, me and deen studied. ahahsk. so cool, we rreally studied okay! not realy fooling arnd, were glad we put our time to effective use, and did productive stuff. on bio. we played a lil quiz and see hu can answer the MCQ questions most correctly. at least quite fun lah. then allofa sudden, deen started to get a bit pissed off, and started packin his bag and left me. whahahaaa that guy emo sia.. but he jokin onli.. so after awhile he came back. haahks.
then at abt 9 plus, both uf us left temasek to meet the kids at tamp interchange, and decided with jess, XL, dora, Jun, FL, KimFang, BangHui, Jonathan, Phira, Ed, Deen and I. and him. abt what movie to watch. all in all after convincing the gals that corpse bride is totally a funeral, we all decided on... Dukes of Hazzard! ahahs, damn funny sia that show. and quite NC16 too lah.. wooo... Jessica Simpson really shiok sia. wahahahaa... so yeah, after the movie, (dun wanna give as much detayls, since some of yall hafnt watch), the whole lot of us ate at LJ, and straight went to EastCoastPark. afew of us went home, so the rest went there, and started.. rollerblading. all of them except me and him has already got experience at rollerblading lor, onli the two of us like.. so amateur liddat.. keep falling. here's my list of injuries:
-my wrists. shudnt haf used the guards, they make ur wrist painful evritime u fall.
-my left elbow, cus i dropped backwrds so many times i think got concussion sia.
-my left kneecap, where it bled. cus i fell at the sharp rocks in front of a drink shop. with him. lol
-and last but never least. my butt. my rear, my ass. my backside, my arse. my gluteus maximus, my cheeks. my Bob and Joe, my buns. my paos, my rottiboys, my- wadever. it hurts from the extreme regions, to the waist, to the centre, to the buttcrack, to the hole. everi possible part there was. ouch. and yeah. i think the shopwoman said i hurt my what? tailbone or sth. since when i had a tail. i have a tailbone inf fro- wadever. okay so yeah. that time go biking at pasir ris with the boys i fell like a pig bad enuff. then tues after physics biking sooo long makes it worse. now today ultimate sia. ah lao... the agony. imagine. so much for ass pain. ahahks.
so after a whole new day, a whole new experience. i went home, with FL Deen KF and him. hw much fun. ahahks i dunnoe why, i think got one spot at the beginner's ring is really cursed. evritime, everi bloody time i skate pass there i wll sure to fall. really. until these two ladies saw me fall many times they say that area cursed. ahahks. and yeah i dunnoe why, FL say brothers. but yeah eberitime he fall i fall. wth. i hurt. i bleed. i bruise.
but yeah amidst the fun and pain of it all, amidst the company of my wonderful friends, the enjoyment and all, the kid that cries still lives within me. beneathe the smiles and luffter. beneath this skin. inside this body. i pray each time he tries to get out.
"Oh Lord bless this soul with happiness, remove from my heart from all signs of evil and darkness, purify my life from the temptations of the devil, and lead me not astray. for without you im nuthing at all. for without your blessing i cripple and fall, washed away by the harsh and cruel tides of time. and yeah, Lord. this may sound cheeky, but pls dun lemme feel hungry the whole of next month. i wanna complete thirty days of fast and seek solace at your House each night for prayers, and make me steadfast in service to you, for you are ma Cherisher, my Life. =]"
Hahaks. Boo to all of you disbelievers. My Gawd!
and guess what.i shud take back what i said abt knowing him for what? 12 years? ahahahs cus no, we din really noe. we happen to be in the same bloody instituition thats all, nuthing more. haahks. dnt rite rubbish on my blog eh? hahaks. thanks for tellin.
enuf of the crap and whatnots for now. lets see hw much ive spent today k" =p=p
1- 4 (2 of which i paid for Phira) bucks on thelostworld arcade another 2 on thehouseofdead 2 on the mini pool thing and 2 on the one with deen.
2- 8 for movie tix. and abt 5 on popcorn and stuff
3- 3 for LJ and yeah! Phira owe me 5. =p
4- 10 for rollerblades and abt 2 (fl owe me one buck =]) and another 2 for drinks.
so grand finale = 55 holy bucks! holy shit holy cow holy mother of crap. wadefook, gotta do sth abt the budget faizal. ure not a rich kid u noe, start savin man! *oh no no no no dun save oh no no no dun saveeee *dontlie tune by blackenedeyedpeas* *
so yeah. met a couple of people from my pre-al past. like fateyn and shamsydar and sarah. oh my gawd i miss hangin with them. oh no... i feel bad evritime i see em, they even called me to ask me out to watch movies today, and i was away with others to watch dukes of hazzard. sorry fateyn, guess next time kay. aniwae corpse bride oso can wait ahr.. yah and oso det time we watched the longest yard, so yeah.. okay ahr for now.
im am out of words.
do say sth on the right side of this page. thanks for hearing my cries. Faizal is a lost kid. someone find him back please, cus im starting to miss the real him.
*people, you heard me!?*
9:23 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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PARANOIA
1- A psychotic disorder characterized by delusions of persecution with or without grandeur, often strenuously defended with apparent logic and reason.
2- Extreme, irrational distrust of others.
3 - When Faizal starts to think of long dark tunnels with white light at the end, just to wake up to yet another stupid day.
This. is a picture. of my heart. interesting eh. if u think so, well hell no. see the fissures cutting across the surface? It reads : Self-Pay, Lust, Anger, Envy, Hate, Greed, and Pride. Just the things that are buggin me right this moment. so yeah, this is my feeling at 9.34pm on 28September05.
okay guys, you peeps missed out on a lot of my life. what happened, was totally sweet. firstly, lemme introduce to you, the Faizal you never knew.
Im 16. yeah that means i can do many things. already.
I walked a lonely road.
but no more.
cus in life, i met a few wonderful people worthy of mention
One, my trustworthy confidante, a person i treasure so dearly, who has helped me thru in my stormy life. She's Fang Lu. sweet.
And Lastly, one who got me into a grp of really cool dudes ive made friends with just recently, and who i kinda stick like glue with nowadays, and get my other friends kinda angry.. he was there when needed, and also there when not needed. ahahks. there for almost 12 years. but close for 2, and not for 1, and back close again. what holy crappiness am i sayin, but onli FL and he noes what nonsense im sayin. go figure yall. and yeah. if i dun mention his name on my holy blog, i swear it wldnt be fun. but then, suspense says it all. i wont say YOUR NAME. boo.
so basically, as a summary, what happened between june and september, is a series of emotional drama, suspense and fights, dilemma and whatnots. u cld say i am glad to be back to where i am now, but glad is not really the right word. i feel, blessed, honored, exalted. wadever. but seriously, when one has got a thousand aquaintances but not a single friend, life is hard to survive. there is a diff between knowing people, and making friends. the former is easy. u can be the most famous person the school has ever known. but you might not haf a single friend. i noe many people like that. and you noe what? they dun like it a single bit. they wld rather wish they were not famous and all, then to not have a single friend at all. get what i mean. its just that they spend alot of time with many many diff people and noe onli a bit of em, but not a lot of time on one or few of people and get to noe em in depth. maybe im just to outgoing, open, and friendly. being too friendly, ironically, does not give you friends. so, things happened, and i met a close grp of dudes and dudettes that i can call friends lah. wadever, im being sappy, but hu cares. this blog is a free blog, i say what i want. i let my heart out, you ve heard what i wanted to say. give comments on the right side of this page, and keep lets hope for the best.
*I pray, to God, for a Friend.*
8:18 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________okay guys, check out the previous post. June 20. hell, what happened faizal! haahks, if u'd asked me, well helluva lot of things happened. to start off wld be, Fang Lu, the one and only confidante i haf. so far. ahahks. so ... she noes alot lah.. shit happened, good stuff too.. like.. getting back on track with the past life that i had. sounds so chiminologically shittified. but seriously, some life-changing experiences happened. motiv course lah, and many things lah. ahahks. and guess what peeps. i think im not going MJ after all. you see, i got F-bloody-9 fa humans le. how to even go TPJ sia! haahks what big joke. so basically the past month of me lyfe is all abt trouble, schoolwork, revision, intensified mugging and helluva chillin' out with the coolest dudes ive recently met in me lyfe. so, yeah. this my shit, for today.
wait for the next post yall. and yeah, whats with everyone blogging sia! hogger!
*underneath the smiles and luffter of this kid, lies a dark and secretive past*
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8:59 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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