PARANOIA
1- A psychotic disorder characterized by delusions of persecution with or without grandeur, often strenuously defended with apparent logic and reason.
2- Extreme, irrational distrust of others.
3 - When Faizal starts to think of long dark tunnels with white light at the end, just to wake up to yet another stupid day.
This. is a picture. of my heart. interesting eh. if u think so, well hell no. see the fissures cutting across the surface? It reads : Self-Pay, Lust, Anger, Envy, Hate, Greed, and Pride. Just the things that are buggin me right this moment. so yeah, this is my feeling at 9.34pm on 28September05.
okay guys, you peeps missed out on a lot of my life. what happened, was totally sweet. firstly, lemme introduce to you, the Faizal you never knew.
Im 16. yeah that means i can do many things. already.
I walked a lonely road.
but no more.
cus in life, i met a few wonderful people worthy of mention
One, my trustworthy confidante, a person i treasure so dearly, who has helped me thru in my stormy life. She's Fang Lu. sweet.
And Lastly, one who got me into a grp of really cool dudes ive made friends with just recently, and who i kinda stick like glue with nowadays, and get my other friends kinda angry.. he was there when needed, and also there when not needed. ahahks. there for almost 12 years. but close for 2, and not for 1, and back close again. what holy crappiness am i sayin, but onli FL and he noes what nonsense im sayin. go figure yall. and yeah. if i dun mention his name on my holy blog, i swear it wldnt be fun. but then, suspense says it all. i wont say YOUR NAME. boo.
so basically, as a summary, what happened between june and september, is a series of emotional drama, suspense and fights, dilemma and whatnots. u cld say i am glad to be back to where i am now, but glad is not really the right word. i feel, blessed, honored, exalted. wadever. but seriously, when one has got a thousand aquaintances but not a single friend, life is hard to survive. there is a diff between knowing people, and making friends. the former is easy. u can be the most famous person the school has ever known. but you might not haf a single friend. i noe many people like that. and you noe what? they dun like it a single bit. they wld rather wish they were not famous and all, then to not have a single friend at all. get what i mean. its just that they spend alot of time with many many diff people and noe onli a bit of em, but not a lot of time on one or few of people and get to noe em in depth. maybe im just to outgoing, open, and friendly. being too friendly, ironically, does not give you friends. so, things happened, and i met a close grp of dudes and dudettes that i can call friends lah. wadever, im being sappy, but hu cares. this blog is a free blog, i say what i want. i let my heart out, you ve heard what i wanted to say. give comments on the right side of this page, and keep lets hope for the best.
*I pray, to God, for a Friend.*
8:18 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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