okay. im back now. after a few days off line all thanks to the impending DeepaRaya, which makes me so busy i dont even have time to touch my mouse. ahahks well, i had my house painted.. and stencilled.. and yeah, i still havnt cleanup my room. hey Faizal, hari raya down the lane soon eh and your underwear are till dominating your bedroom floor. sheesh. ahahks *sorry for the little insights of my insides*.
-Wednesday 26102005-
was when alvin fanglu and denan and i went to have a lil grp study at the usual. well, u cant say it wasnt productive, but hey, we did something okay. so early morning on that day i was supposed to meet alvin at 10 at tam mrt control tower XD. but i left house at 9 and reached the McDidi at 915. the one at TM. near the MRT station. so i took my biology book out and started reading and doodled abit and hey presto, it was 955. so i gotready to pack my bag and head towards the arrival hall to welcome alvin with open arms - and legs. (in case i needed to kick him lol XD). i was being optimistic, hoping against hope that alvin wld for once in my life arrive on the dot. but hey.. ahahks.. so i waited and waited. i cld count the number of times Pasir Ris train arrived, and waited like a lost sheep, searching for alvin in the throng of homo sapiens coming down the escalator. three times were over, and so was fifteen minutes. ahaks so i headed back to the McDs to wait lah. and i went back to the MRT trying to see if he was there. five times to-and-fro and finally you-know-who arrived with a sheepface for a head. i mean, with a sheepish smile. ahahks my england veli good hor. so yeah, we headed towards bus 31 and was on our way to MP, with no idea where we were gonna study and then called FL abit before we reached her stop but being the slowpoke that she was she missed us and the duo went to MP library to return audreys book and then took the next 31 and hey presto, the queen was up there in the bus. Fang Lu was wearing class tee. thank God, i nearly almost wore the same thing. if not it wld look like a master-doggy conspiracy. lol.
okay so we reached MP and we came to a consensus to slug it out at the KFC. ahahks, then abt awhile later my man denan arrived. woohoo. ahahks so we studied.. studied.. and denan had to leave early cus he left his physics tB at home, and wanted to study there.. so the three of us FL Al and me continued crappin a bit. me and al went roaming for some survey of gradnite clothes at G2000.. ahahks the clothes there sucked.. and are damn ex lor.. so we continued crapping.. then at abt four plus we decided to call it a day and headed next to East Coast Park, the trio. we walked.. had some fun at east coast park lor.. spent like an hour or so there.. yeah.. this was what we did
1- alvin or sth found a small glass bottle and it reeked of.. what was that, urea? or alcohol.. either ways it stank like what even the junkhouse cldnt offer. so al went to wash it , and one of us brainiacs had a wonderfoo idea to write a message and screw it up in the bottle.. so i wrote
"To: whoever who reads this.
From: FangLu, Alvin, Faizal.
We wish that we get all the blessings that Life has got to offer, and friends forever!
Amen."
and we chucked the message into the bottle, and cus we screwd it so tight *hahaks no play of words here* it floated on the surface of the sea when we threw it, and it stayed buoyant for abt fifteens minutes or so before we lost sight of it. ahahks, i really think one day someone will read the msg. =)
2- we skipped stones after that, and alvin managed to do two or three stones skip. bravo man. fanglu too, altho she anihow onli then taiko (is this hw u spell) and then kena like two or three hits also. but hey guess what peeps, i skipped, six times, in a row! i became bloody euphoric after that, jumping like some wild monkey. i soo loved it. but hey the skipping thing didnt come without some hard work okay.. omg, one day im gonna hit seven times. and on that day, i will go over the moon.
3- okay soon after that me and Al got into a fight. ahahks not a squabble, but we got all hands and legs. no we din punch and kick other, but we got into a wrestle. and hell no it was no where near WWE style. but we tried.. and to a certain extent no avail, to lift the other and have him thrown into the sea. we did that for about 20 minutes, and omgawd was it a really goood exercise. man after the whole thing my arms were like tensed, and legs too. and i was sweating like a hog. and alvin complained of feeling like he wanted to faint, and he was melting.. lol.. ahahks. i cld find no way to lift him off terra firma unaware. the only time i ever got him was when he voluntarily allowed me to. but ahahks. i nearly got him up and away into the sea. but hey, whats a great wrestle without a sacrifice right? and so we decided to get our ever so enthusiastic sepactator fangLu into the sea.. but nah.. we din. missing china gurls make good headlines you know. i dun want to get hanged. XD. you watch out alvin. chalet, u drown. *grins*.. ahahks Fang Lu. u too.
aahsk so that was all for wednesday.
-Thursday 27102005-
Physcis pract. din noe it cld be quite easy. nuthing much to be said, except that we went badminton after that. and yeah, boy did i not wash my right hand. sigh.. sweet paradise.. *no im not telling you what happened on my right hand! you go find out for yourself!* =)
-Friday 28102005-
nuthing happened.
-Saturday 29102005-
ahahks. now my house is half furnished for the raya next week. wah lao so tiring.. okay
at 2pm i met up with my cool rawker of an uncle (single,27,darnkewl) and took 65 to Bugis. hahks initially i wanted to go alone to get my new pairs.. but since his going, why not i go.. maybe he can blanja me on my new shoes or sth.. so we travlled to Bugis and there was practically nuthing much there. went to Topman Topshop and we eyed a few of those BootCut Jeans .. wah lao 70+ bucks, but darn nice. i will get one soon. yay. aahahks.. then searched arnd at the Adidas and Nike shops for shoes.. but nuthing with my taste. so we went over to barcode, and there was this real cool shoes, but it wasnt sports , and the sole wasnt flat. *okay another bit of insights of my insdes for you guys out there - im flat-footed. i can wear normal shoes, but i will get pain in my feet everytime. its hard for me to get shoes. i am flat footed. so flat that even the flatchested gurl next door will thank God shes not as flat as my flat footed feet.* so we took train to Orchard road. ahahks so far from 2pm to 11pm we went:
Bugis Junction
Far East plaza
Wisma Atria
Le Meridien
CentrePoint
The Heeren
and hell was my uncle a good shopper. in all the shopping malls we went, we never failed to visit TopshopTopman, Billabong, Adidas, Nike, Mambo, Barcode, Levi's and all. after what seemed like thirty pairs of jeans and thirty shoes, and 4 topman shops, i finally got my pair of Nike - Dunk Low NL (DK oak/blue-chill baroque-brwn model) woohoo! ahahks finally.. some thing for me to wear.. i swear, the previous pair of DCshoes were stolen by some bangla bloke, and from now onwards im so gonna keep my shoes insde house. i thank DEAN for having blanja abit of the bloody nice shoes. ^^
so the rest of the nite i spent breaking fast at my uncle's work place at Le Meridien, then went to Al-Falah for some conv with The Big Guy up there, then went back to meet uncle to continue our shop-hopping spree. oh and yeah, it is believed that ma uncle the devil (dun kill me eh unkle) will burn to ashes should he step in 100 metres range of the nearby mosque. so yeah. ^^
-Sunday 30102005-
nuthing much worthy of blogging happened
-Monday 31102005-
Higher Mother Fucking Malay Language Paper One and Two. sucked my balls bigtime. the darn compo was hard, and the paper two was even harder. i had difficulty peeling the papers even. lol, too hard ma.. then guess what, the stupid bitch of an invigilator saw a bit of chemical eqns from my previous practical on the back of my entry proof and started making a bloody ruckus out of it. right when i was doing my exam, sia! futhermucker. then like as if that wasnt enuf. she told eddy fucking tan abt my situation and he started demanding i photocopied my entry proof for the next paper. and what the fuckin hell i cld feel the whole damn hall lookin at me. lol.
then paper two. in the classroom. first thing is, half the class brought in normal pencil cases into the class. second thing is, the stupid bitch of an invigilator only checked MY pencil case and hey guess what, being the ignorant fool that i am i had a piece of notes inside my darn pencil case which i lazily forgot to take out. so she started making another short pandemonium while i was having my darn paper two. thank you, so much, gurls.
and then after that i met up with ma men ph and al. haahks, and al forgot my book. oh well. ^^
we went to BKMP to study a bit, then off to PP to shit. then al and me did the WWE shit again. dun wanna elaborate on this, except we saw like some couple having fun in the waters.. and yeah. thats the end of the day. hot gurl.
i realised something. my name FAIZAL is like an adjective. can be used to describe things. like, inspirationAL, motivationAL, sentimentAL, faizAL.. yeah somecrapshit for you.
oh yeah, i have a phobia, and only Phira noes what it is. if any of u guys check out the complete list or book of phobias, youll never see mine listed inside. i think im the only one in the world suffering from this abnormal fear. no one else has it. i have never asked for it, and i guess its the worst kind of fear ever that men can ever face. i have always wished i never faced this kinda shit. i wld do anything to get it off me, just so long its off me. i try hard.
and i also realise that its hard for me to feel embarrased in public. dunnoe why. maybe im some mental kid?
yeah thats all for this time. adios.
AND YEAH i would like to take this opportunity to wish my man DENAN SAHER my good friend, and to the whole of the Indian community of the world a VERY HAPPY MERRY DEEPAVALI. ^^
3:27 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________
to you guys whom i call friends out there, wherever you are, whoever you are. This is Dido - Thank You, i dedicate for you. Sit back and relax, and enjoy the song. Do read each and every word of it. I mean it.
Thank You - Dido
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
and even if I'm there, they'll all imply that I might not last the day
and then you call me and it's not so bad
it's not so bad and
I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life
Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and
through
then you handed me a towel and all I see is you
and even if my house falls down now, I wouldn't have a clue
because you're near me
and
I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life
11:21 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________ahahks. you guys ever felt this feeling, that lingers with you perpetually, like some kind of ghost haunting you day and night. no seriously, i dont know what it's called. its when, like, you have broken the principal's car window, and your appointment to see her is due next monday after school, and all through the weekend you dont feel easy. you act as if its nothing, but everytime during the weekend something reminded you of the detention youre gonna face you suddenly feel this stone drop right in your stomach. yeah that kindof feeling. like when you are 5 days away from the Big Os and youve been studying rather lightly, and everytime you get reminded of the exams you feel the same feeling again. it never dissipates from you, neither does it really stick to you. it just lingers there like a ghost. yep. i have been haunted by that for almost a month.
and its not solely due to exam stress.
quite a number of things are running thru my head now. this period of time, my brains never cease to stop working. the main reason is the bloody exams of course. and there are a few other factors contributing to my uneasiness. i hate it. like what Al said, long bus rides are great. i love long bus rides. it allows for continuous, uninterrupted self-reflection and self-debate. i would argue with my own head for two hours from bedok interchange to plaza singpura. or maybe from tampines to kent ridge on the 10. its really great. but, sigh, its never great to reach your destination without solving a single problem bugging your backside.
today is sunday. normally i wld haf gone for faith class early morning till 11. but the lessons are having a break due to the fasting month. and thank God, i can use this time to revise my ass off. okay, my day started at 8, and i did Raffles Instituition Emaths Paper one, only to get 62/80. not bad, u say, but i target 70 plus for all emaths paper ones. i need to secure my A1. and then after marking and doing my corrections, i attempted RGS paper one, emaths again, at about 9. and this time, the myth that gurls are smarter than guys came true for me. i got 54/80. argh! im going nowhere. but hey, after counting the many careless mistakes i get, i realise that i cld have gotten 14 marks more. i hate my carelessness.
at 10.30 i started slacking. ahahks.. and turned on the teevee and hey guess what? new seasons of Power Rangers! - Dino Thunder. MAN the first episode rawks. at least this time round they dun have a puny little hamster as their master. lol. ahahks. you guys must not miss POWER RANGERS DINO THUNDER EVERY SUNDAY AT 1030 AM ONLY ON KIDS CENTRAL.
okay. and then at abt 315 Phira came over ot my house to loan my Chem Notes. ahahks. with his new 600bucks bike. holey cow! it was awesome. Oi Phira! someday i get to ride your bike k! ahahks. and yeah. you forgot my Kung Fu Hussle. again. ah nevermind.
oh well. i am just bawrd, and this is my shit, for the day.
dun forget to leave your comments below.
and yeah, just 10 more days to Eid you peeps out there! no more hunger after that okay? resilience you all, cmon! God Bless. =)
3:40 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________oh another thing. did i say what word i hate most? i really do think that the word "whatever" should not even be in the dictionary. not even in any verbal language of any kind, in braille, morse code or sign language, in cryptic form or martian communication, of any written form, or tone, or method of delivery of word. no matter what, the word "whatever" should not be used as a substitution of other words at all. the word per se should be made by all religions and Faiths on earth as a mortal, cardinal sin. as the eighth deadly sin. as the original sin. as the sin of all evil. the word is a big mistake created by men. all because the word by itself, said in, no matter whether it is said in a bitchy tone, or in a very soft, mild, yet sarcastic tone, can induce so much hatred in men, so much pain in the heart. if a man says so much to convey, deliver and express his deepest feelings, and what he gets in return for such heartwork is a "whatever", it hurts to the point of hopelessness. i wont be surprised if one day the word "whatever" uttered by a man will trigger God to unleash Judgement there and then. doomsday.
Whatever.
9:03 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________OMG. ramesh and cherie were back. when janet and i went to Toh's homeroom to meet then, the both of us were SO thrilled that we cld barely breathe. janet's face was beaming when we saw them. omg omg. my two angels, right before my eyes. well i can say that cherie is still the hot cherie i noe. well u might be askin, what are the two of em doing in temasek. well they were having a career talk with 4A and partly cus they had to take in the stuff that Temasekians of 4 V and R had donated for the Burma Project. Janet and I had to carry two trips of like 20 huge platic bags of clothes up from 4V homeroom to first floor. and Thanks alot you guys for having taken the trouble to support this noble cause. and yeah ramesh invited me to come along next yr to Burma and help out with the Home, since i helped contribute to em. yeah. and we invited them for the class chalet le.
MJ open house sucked. but hey, met Audrey there. long time no see her le. ahahks so yeah. Alvin *notice how his name starts to appear. first appearance lol XD* displayed his fine skill at throwing a bowling ball and make it roll and hit eight pins. ahahks. still! so yeah. the whole thing was bawring. even the principal talk was, well, bawring. totally. half the time she was crapping abt how well the school has progressed throughout the few years of establishment. then there was this time when i tried to kick the soccer ball back into the arena of players but i fumbled with it like some kayu and made a fool of myself in front of the whole of JC population so badly that even Denan who was standing like 10 meters away saw it and luffed his shit out that he complained of stomache ache. well now at least youre on your way to pectorals. *_* okay. oh and yeah, did i mention that half of MJ is inhabited by extemasekians? i shud have announced to the PA sytsem for all extemasekians and temasekians alike to go to the parade square and do teh temasek cheer. roflmao.
so yeah. then after that whole nonsense at the JC we all went home. *deen al phi ily khai sk jaime and me* had a whole helluva crazy time in the bus. jaime was busy seducing the bus driver, something she does even to PizzaHut aunties and amaths teachers as well.
okay enuff of today
yesterday then
yesterday was great, i guess. kinda productive. two days ago were damn prodcutive. ahahks. but yeah Alvin got mad at me for some reasons unknown till lately, and i was kinda pissd at him too la. and someone else. ahahks. this thing called jealousy, as quoted from source Phira, is very strong amongst men. stronger is the envy in boys than gals, you guys noe that? yeah but to me, jealousy is fire to the ass. it hurts like shit. so normally to counter it is to add water to the fire. something i do well. cold and well. cold water douse hot fire. i give cold shoulder.
but heck so childish la, all in all. normally, as i told edward yesterday, normally i am the one to apologise. no matter how bad others are to me, no matter how heavy the whole world of fault lies on my friend's head, i would be the one willing enuff to say the sorry, and to take the whole world of blame. something ive lived with since my primary school days. credit should go to the many insensitive primary school friends i haf. and now too. aahks all becos i dun like to see others unhappy la basically. edward told me im no saint and i do have feelings, but heck, i dun care abt what i feel animore, so long others are happy, then i am. so yeah. life goes on.
i love my friends. =)
7:54 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, four years are gone.
And I never see my old friends' face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might
be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends
and family, for they have helped
make you the person that you are today.
7:51 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________
and yeah i forgot. after moderation, my L1R5 is 17. joy.
so now, i guess if they dun allow minussing of points, i will go TPJC lah. but if i can minus points for cca, i will go MJC arts with 15 points. but if they more kind hearted i can go MJ science with 13 points. it all depends. nuthing is decided.
but one thing is decided for sure.
are u ready?
are u sure?
you are not gonna luff rite?
just dont tip over backwards luffing okay?
now scroll down...
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IM GONNA GET 9 AND BELOW FOR L1R5 RAW MARKS FOR O LEVELS.
listen to me. i am a a language student. and i know that my strength is at the languages. this is rare among science students nowadays and hell yeah am i gonna brag abt it. ahahks fine! its my onli really firm strength so yeah! complain all you want. since im good at english. as what not onli swati, but Kamlesh, Lela, Audra, Raja said a mutitude of times, i CAN USE MY BLAHDEH LANGUAGE CAPABILITY TO HARNESS MY TALENT IN CRAPPING THRU MU HUMANS WHICH I APPARENTLY, FANTASTICALLY GOT A BLAHDEH F9 FOR. okay, lets get serious okay. i can get a distincion for humans. if droolers like .... XXX from my class who cant even speak half the time decent english can get a bloody distinction, then what abt meee!? just spend 40 minutes on SEQ. ten minutes each part, and remember guys, no matter how hard it is to stop and carry on, its worth it okay. stop, and dun jeopardise your capacity to obtain the A1 by attempting to reach theL5 one more mark okay. so yeah. and the rest of the time, i use for SEQ. not hard right? right. and geog? just put in the facts that the bloody examiners want and hey presto with a bit of geniosity i might just get.. well.. full marks? XD so yeah ahahks.
the three language-based subjects. and needed in L1R5:
ENGLISH A2
HUMANS A2
Higher ML A1
My strong science:
CHEM A1
My strong math:
EMATHS A1
My last relevant subject:
AMATHS A2
Okay the rest are just backup subjects in case i do better in them and not in what i haf expected:
BIOLOGY A2
PHYSICS B3
and what i already haf:
ML A2
so if you guys can count with your ten fingers, this is my targeted RAW L1R5:
9
and yeah i can minus 4 points:
5
and if i stay in MJ deduct yet another 2:
3
YOU LAUGH. JUST WAIT.
i will show you what i really am.
thanks swati for having made me realise that i am the A1 student that im supposed to be.
oh shiet new dilemma: if i get less than 9 VJ will definitely start hollering my name and i will haf to submit to temptations. on the other bloody hand, i just hope i get slightly more than 9. 11 perhaps? then i can forget abt VJ and concentrate on Mj instead, where i really wanna go. so yeah. let fate decide. right now. ive gotta study, and beat the crap out of you guys so hard you wish you never had those two things hanging.
you guys just wait.
and unlike you, im not gonna waste my time by looking at others' blogs like you have all the blahdeh time in the blahdeh world. cus im gonna study straight after this. you there. you can continue reading my wonderfully vulgar blog. and i am gonna pwn you in everything.
and yeah. sorry for the rough langauge.
appreciate my style of conveying my thots.
just too bad for you then?
2 POINTS!
7:58 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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i wanna travel thru time
see your surprise
hold you so tight
im counting down the days tonite
i just wanna be a million miles away from here.
***
when is it gonna end man!?
O levels, gimma a break.
and yeah, a new layout for you guys out there!
sorry for the no updates recently.
so far, ive been rather moody on me blogs. so sory
now i guess ive gotta change fer the better!
BE HAPPIE.
no time to be sad.
no need for regrets.
like what FL said , " BE NATURAL!"
live life as it is.
let fate decides.
give yourself a break.
VJ open house opened my eyes
im gonna strive to get less than 9 for Os
yeah rite am I gonna strive!
but then again. dillemma.
once i get 9, i might wanna ditch VJ and
go MJ instead.
well, i haf to let fate rest for a while
and put matters into my hands.
for once in my life.
i will decide.
but have you?
10:27 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________they say that in sec school is where you really truly enjoy your youth.
bad news - tmr's the last day of secondary life.
to 4Versatility.
to my HML friends.
to Fatin's clique.
to my new found mates.
to Temasek Secondary School
i express my utmost thanks right from the truest corner of my heart.
i am so gonna miss you peeps. so so so gonna miss you guys. cus you peeps
shaped what i am today.
i so am gonna feel damn bloody sad lor.
sigh. stupid backgrnd music. wished someone can tell it to stop cus it really makes
me feel crap.
sad.
meetcha guys one day when we're all grown up and have our own kids and all k yall?
till then.
adios.
take care.
cherish the times we had.
hope one day we'll meet again.
okay?
goodbye.
9:15 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________ahahks.
first three months if TPJ
- after that poly
- or after that MJ
first three months MJ
- after that poly
-or after that still MJ
first three months work
-after that poly
-or MJ or TPJ
or if i can make it, if, i wanna go to VJ***
as you can see, and as i have promised, only time and cicumstances can help me eliminate the many possibilties i haf to face. now im down to three choices. i really hope i can make it into MJ for the first three months at least. but then again, what if i really bucked up and get the 9 points for O levels and then i am eligible for VJ which is kinda likely.. i guess... i would then face with yet another crossroads in life and start worrying my pants off and in the end im stuck at the middle again as per norm cus i fear too much that should i make the wrong decisions in life it would affect the people arnd me and all. i fear, i fear, i fear.
i fear too much, worry too much, think of things too much that sometimes ppl take me too lighty. theyve got no idea that inside this head lies all the many worries the world can ever think of. they never ever even for once realise hw seriously i take friends for. sometimes too much that i cant help but put a brave front in front of them and say yaya papaya that im not gonna miss them la.. dun need go same JC lah.. yada yada. but hell as much as i wanna go VJ, i really badly wanna be in MJ too. part of me prays to God for something MORE than 9 for Os. only then will i be totally out of VJ and start thinking of MJ instead. this is hard on me. but then again, but then again. always there is the but thens. sigh... im torn apart. falling into pieces.
Faizal always put on a front. no matter how sadly he feels abt graduation and the future, he dus not like to show it. so yeah..
evrytime he thinks of the future and what lies ahead of him, Faizal fears for the worst.
so together yet so broken up inside.
9:29 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________
Decisions.
there are so many things in life that requires one to think abt it for a long time and finally come to a conclusion to carry out necessary steps. sometimes what you do may hurt your feelings and please others. other times it would prove otherwise. sometimes what you choose is not what you want, you get forced into it. but more often than not, your choice will definitely affect you, your loved ones, and the people around you. your friends. definitely. sometimes the impact your actions leave is great enough to change others' lives and sometimes it would not. that's what you and I call 'decisions'.
aggregate of 23 for prelims will land me quite no where. but if it were to be modded to about 20, me and edward will go to SRJC. ahahks, funny, me being in SRJ. who would have thought? but then again, shit happens. ahahks.. i just wish that i could decide this time round. sigh..
so if i go to SRJ, and after Feb i gt back my results.. hope it's definitely lesser than 15 points. hell am i gonna buck up. its not that hard you noe. after all, i onli got Fbloody9 for humans cus i din do SEQ. by o levels, i would get..
targeted, maximum L1R5 for O bloody Levels.
english b4
humans c5
HML b4
amaths b4
emaths a1
chem a1
phy b4
bio b3
what i already haf
ML "O"s a2
if i use english as L1, and R5 humans, emaths, chem, bio, malay, i would get
4 + 5 + 1 + 1 + 3 + 2 = 16 for O levels.
16 - 4 bonus = 12 points.
MJ here i come.
1) ahahks.. decisions.. decisions.. if i go SRJ with 20 points and all, i go MJ after i three months
2) if not eligible even after getting O results, i wld not stay in SR. i would go poly instead
3) if i get modded to, miraculously, to 17, which is sooo out of the mind.. and minus 4 points bonus, which is sooo tentative.. i can start knocking on MJ's doors le.
3/4 of 4V are eligible for JC after mod
4) so if i fall into the 1/4 grp, i haf first three months of work. at pizzahut prolly? ahahks free food, i heard. got money oso. cool eh.
from here i got two more choices
5) after working three months i might get O results and get into a JC,
6) or not. then i wld go poly instead.
so all in all
1) first three months if SRJ
*(a) then after that i can go to MJ
*(b) or after that i go poly
2) first three months MJ
*(a) then stay there
*(b) or after that i go poly
3) first three months work
*(a) then MJ
*(b) or poly
see the many possibilities that i haf to face.
only time and friends can make me eliminate a few of those choices
and make me come to a consensus.
i hope i get what i really want
i hope that this time round i get to choose instead
i hope that what i get do not affect the people arnd me badly
i hope.
see the many possibilities i haf to face?
3:13 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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L1r5
no hope le for JC, much less MJ.
raw marks, unmoderated,
this my shit:
English - 59% C5
EMath - 77% A1
AMath - 59% C5
Chem - 72% A2
Phy - 60% B4
Bio - 52% C6
SS - 20% F9
Geog - 54% C6
Humans - 37% F9
HML - 71% A2
good luck faizal. first three months go work or sth.
yesterday was fun. the guys and the gals went out together, and i celebrated my last day of eating. nite went mosk, and damn was it cool. ahahks. very touching la mosk nowadays. wonder wat their thinking.
today 1st day, and haahks.. nearly ate some.. shit happens, but damn, sitting next to phira, youll never fail to say sth horny or dirty every like, 5 seconds.
"Daniel, 69", Kamlesh said. ahahks. *lufterr*, *kamlesh turns to Faizal, saying "You haf a dirty mind".* Faizal says, "whaha wat the hell! i was thinking of my bus number 69 that goes to bedok reservoir! what were you thinking?!" ahahks and all in all i love kamlesh. so cute. damn. he's married. *roll eyes, on floor*
pasir ris park and all.. halfway needed to leave cus shit happens. as friends were spinning on circle discs, faizal was spinning both in the tummy, and in the brains. vertigo. wahah.
today's blog is shit. sorry guys. and yeah, happy break - fast.
8:01 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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marks for
Englsih prelims.
-c5-
well i think i should be thinking of ITE entrance points instead.
tomorrow's the last day of eating.
when fasting starts, hope my prayers for better grades are heard
God, dear sweet God. help this kid.
To all my fellow Brothers and Sisters in Faith, i wish you all happy fasting, wherever you are upon this earth. God Bless, and Rawks your Lives.* (=
* come on la. its a good way of dieting lor. and that fat stomache needs rest after a whole year churning shit!*
*dear God please, make me steadfast and strong in Spirit and in Faith, especially in the coming month, so that i shall forever dwell in Your blessing and guidance, and serve You till the end of my days. Ameen*
ciao.
7:40 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________yesterday was a killer. damned bawring man.. But thank God there was night classes at Mosk. if not fer that i wld haf died of boredom. Eh got eh, it was reported that there were five unique cases of deaths due to boredom. and 11 case of deaths due to laughter. wonder why the luffter one more than boredom. *should haf been the otha way rnd*
aniwae.. yesterday nite.. went for the very last nite class. so cool, man, the peeps there told us there wld be a camp at malaysia this coming december , and OML the place there is like, double the fun of Pahang!!!. the rivers there are like dbl the breadth of the pahang river, the bridge connecting one end to the other of the bloody river, suspended in mid air, is like.. from one en dof the field to the other 5 times. goshhh.. the flying fox and all.. wow i sure cant wait. the last time they had a camp i was not able to attend.. so yeah. this yr O levels wont be not an excuse for me not to go. i am gonna start saving a hundred fifty bucks. and so.. afer the nite class, at abt 10 plus me, Nefarious and Syarms went to McD's and had a quick supper. gawsh the bloody McD was so crowded at that time of the nite. we cld hardly find another seat inside and out the McD. and soo.. yeah at avt 11 plus i reached home. in a rush. cus i needed to empty whatever's inside. diarrhoea was baddd.. *gotta shake it offff* =p
sunday came and went. today, morning went out early morning for another morning class. thank Gawd next week is the last. and yeah, i went with Nefarious. hahaks soo cewl. and went home also with Nef. so kewl.. ahahks. *by now u should all noe that this blog, for today, is totally, dead.* ahahks..
[yeah my bloody msn not functionin'. wth.]
so life went on, dragging me by the collars so hard that i feel the boredom hurting my-. yeah. but thank GOD, sth cropped up. me mom asked me to follow her go to Pasir Ris Park with the kiddies cus they wanna play sand. ahahks.. so there i was, but i asked her what my gonna do there. so yada yada rather than spend three hours doing nuth and watch my bros build sandcastles in the air, i decided to skate! wahahaks so lame. right. right after that day still wanna skate. butt already hurts. but skate alone? right, i will look like some lamer.
[okay i tried three times already, i cant sign in]
so yeah, called my loyal wolf down to accompany me.. thank god once again he damn sporting, so in a while he was already there at PRP. but we din skate, we cycled instead... cycled cycled cycled .. gossip about the beaaaaccches on the beach, abt things abt this abt that abt how big my ba- is and all.. ahahks just jokin.
[okay now wld be the fifth time]
we went to the maze, and took some pics in the middle. ahahks after the glorious victory sure must capture the magical moment into photos right. and so we had quite a hillarious time trying to include the bikes' wheels into the pic, but barely made it. cummon, deen's hand can only go that far. tho not as far as his..---- in the sea! XD but aiyah today his ---- in the sea has gone further north, prolly towards siloso beach at sentosa where all the.. fun are. whatever. me shitting rubbish? rubbish shitting me? wahaha.
[okay someone start to tell Bill Gates his stuff are not working]
and so from there we went all the way to the end of PRP, where i sawwwwww.... ustaz jamaluddin!!! (all Fityanites reading this, loooook!) ahahks by the way, he's the head of the mosk where i frequent.. and its kinda cool to see him at PRP hafin a lil outing with his family, or friends.. ahahs i saw him and he invited us to eat along with him.. but i.. like the usual shy me.. denied his offer rather appreciatively.. ahahks what honor.. so yeah..
[MSN sucks. i should get AOL or sth]
from there me and my loyal wolf deen with his winter cap and his newfound hand gear that apparently accounted for his very cool appearance, (hahaks he wore his winter cap more like becos he...... ahahks!!! ask him XD) went on to the breakwaters where he testified his love for DS and where my xiaodidi voiced out his also undying love for my loyal pet dog Lulu. on the breakwaters, in liquid paper some more. ahahks.. deen tried to perform this really dangerous stunt by cycling down the breakwaters, but in the end decided that i wldnt go that far as to tell his mom his final wishes.
[i think MSN hates me by now. sorry Bill.]
yeah, we went down the safe way, but not without hafin a great deal of eye candy covering our view totally. waaaah two hot bikini babes frolicking unda da sun with barely nuth on.. waaaahhh deen and i were like.. wow. prolly his ---- in the sea by noe has gone beyond sentosa past antarctica.. ahahks (inside joke, so dun find it at all dirty. boo XP) and yeah, both of us like some weirdos started to play this game to see-who-cld-skip-the-stones-more-than-the-other.. and then the game somehow evolved to see-who-can-throw-the-furthest and then to see-who-can-see-the-skies-by-facing-away-from-the-sea,-bend-over,-and-see-the-skies-from-between-your-legs. you guys shuld definitely try it out man, the view, is totally. other-worldy. ahahks. watever it means. go figure.
[i think i will uninstall MSN and go drown this comp somewhere at PRP]
thereafter both of us decided to leave PRP, after doodling on the sand some of our friend's bdates. ahahsk. but hey hey heyy.. we cant just leave the two poor, shirtless babes alone right... so what we decided to do was we took turns to actually try and attempt to take their pics. conspicuosly that is. not so blatently lah. ahahks.. but after a few walking-to-and-fro annd try-to-take-their-pix-without-em-knowing, we gave up.. ahahks i bet you the gals were luffing at the riduculiarity (wadever) of these two desperate boys. ahahks.
[im speechless]
so from there me and deen walked sllllooowwwwlllyy to PR interchange and .. we split. ahahks.. so now here i am, fresh after a nice shower, blogging my boring life away. ahahsk.
today. felt good all the while. prolly the lost me wld soon be found again? perhaps? we'll see.. let's hope Faizal returns one day. ahaks.
yeah, tired, and i think i really shuld be attempting A-Maths now. adios amigos. i ciao for now.
here's a lil joke for you before i leave.
[laxative: a food that stimulates evacuation of bowels. make u shit in other words.]
Juicy Squirt
The owner of a drug store walks in to find a guy leaning heavily against a wall. The owner asks the clerk, "What's with that guy over there by the wall?"
The clerk says, "Well, he came in here this morning to get something for his cough. I couldn't find the cough syrup, so I gave him an entire bottle of laxative."
The owner says, "You idiot! You can't treat a cough with laxatives!"
The clerk says, "Oh yeah? Look at him, he's afraid to cough!"
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7:12 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
_______________Guidaci Sulla Retta Via 1:6_______________yet another bawring day of the week. you guys can start leaving this blog already. even i am bored reading, typing this, ahahks. but what the heck, a blog is a blog, and what else my to do. the day's bawring damnit what do u expect.
the day starts at 6 for me. wake up to attempt a bit of physics, onned the radio, heard the bloody power98 deejays trying to cheer the earlybirds up by trying to say sth like.. "thanks for starting your day with the hottest radio station, power98". -.-'' ahahks. good try roslyn. or whatever your name shud be. bless you. and within a few minutes after that i fell back to sleep. damn. no one sleeps after 7 in my house, but praise the Lord, this time im sleepin' no matta what man. ahahks. sleepyhead. snoreeee.... woke up at 9 plus to get online. yup. din brush teeth, hafnt bathe yet. hw terrible. ahahks. so online to get confrmation from Deen on wetha we shud go outa study today.. but in the end cancelled cos SK was out hafin' fun unda da sun with a woh mahn. watevah. so yeah. one whole day passed by, wasted. ahahks. but at 1 plus im outa the house on the way to Mosk.
wth. Mosk was like, another motivational talk todae.. peeps were cryin everywhere.. cus the person up there talking was makin us realise all the time wasted .. yada yada.. and yeah.. got quite sad for a while.. i vowed neva to waste my time no more... see how it's gonna work. *smiles*
so yeah... all the way till 6 plus after that i slept. ahaks like a pig. till me dad woke me up.. ahahks.. in preparation for the fasting month i try to eat lesser by the time lah so that me inner processes in there dun get shocked by the sudden lack of food to digest. urgh. dun want gastric. that wld be the last thing i need.
and there goes my day. the rest of the time. online . bloggin. ahahks chatting. music. phira. deen. him. ahahsk thats all. for today. signing off, Faizal.
or at least that was what i hoped. but i just cldnt stop typing. i need to get this off my head. my chest. things been worryin me. i wanna be a good Liver. wadever. but i cldnt find ways.. i need help. i need to get my Life, first, back on track. ive been crossing roads so much that im not surprised that one day when both paths diverge ill be stuck in the mid, thinkig abt which to choose.
"When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you"
. sigh. Lord i need someone to tell me exactly that. when im down and sad. cus i badly need a shoulder to cry upon, when times get bad. cus time, as u all might noe.. waits for no man, and is not on my side nowadays. i gotta wrap up this secondary life soon, and prepare to start anew.. cus i cant depend on my friends all the time right people. i just wish someone out there wld say, "No Faizal. No". that i can stay on. but then again.. i cant hope that much, cos if one day im failed, betrayed by my hope.. i can just break down.. i need help. gosh. need help. so many crossroads in life. friend crossroads. JC choice crossroads. Life crossroads. someone pls provide me a signpost. show me the way. please?
Someone help this kid. he's losing himself by the day. dun get fooled by all the smiles and laughter. cus in him lies someone desperate to get out. someone please please please find Faizal back please. please. please...
11:59 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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