first three months if TPJ - after that poly - or after that MJ
first three months MJ - after that poly -or after that still MJ
first three months work -after that poly -or MJ or TPJ
or if i can make it, if, i wanna go to VJ***
as you can see, and as i have promised, only time and cicumstances can help me eliminate the many possibilties i haf to face. now im down to three choices. i really hope i can make it into MJ for the first three months at least. but then again, what if i really bucked up and get the 9 points for O levels and then i am eligible for VJ which is kinda likely.. i guess... i would then face with yet another crossroads in life and start worrying my pants off and in the end im stuck at the middle again as per norm cus i fear too much that should i make the wrong decisions in life it would affect the people arnd me and all. i fear, i fear, i fear.
i fear too much, worry too much, think of things too much that sometimes ppl take me too lighty. theyve got no idea that inside this head lies all the many worries the world can ever think of. they never ever even for once realise hw seriously i take friends for. sometimes too much that i cant help but put a brave front in front of them and say yaya papaya that im not gonna miss them la.. dun need go same JC lah.. yada yada. but hell as much as i wanna go VJ, i really badly wanna be in MJ too. part of me prays to God for something MORE than 9 for Os. only then will i be totally out of VJ and start thinking of MJ instead. this is hard on me. but then again, but then again. always there is the but thens. sigh... im torn apart. falling into pieces.
Faizal always put on a front. no matter how sadly he feels abt graduation and the future, he dus not like to show it. so yeah..
evrytime he thinks of the future and what lies ahead of him, Faizal fears for the worst.
so together yet so broken up inside.
9:29 PM burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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