yet another bawring day of the week. you guys can start leaving this blog already. even i am bored reading, typing this, ahahks. but what the heck, a blog is a blog, and what else my to do. the day's bawring damnit what do u expect.
the day starts at 6 for me. wake up to attempt a bit of physics, onned the radio, heard the bloody power98 deejays trying to cheer the earlybirds up by trying to say sth like.. "thanks for starting your day with the hottest radio station, power98". -.-'' ahahks. good try roslyn. or whatever your name shud be. bless you. and within a few minutes after that i fell back to sleep. damn. no one sleeps after 7 in my house, but praise the Lord, this time im sleepin' no matta what man. ahahks. sleepyhead. snoreeee.... woke up at 9 plus to get online. yup. din brush teeth, hafnt bathe yet. hw terrible. ahahks. so online to get confrmation from Deen on wetha we shud go outa study today.. but in the end cancelled cos SK was out hafin' fun unda da sun with a woh mahn. watevah. so yeah. one whole day passed by, wasted. ahahks. but at 1 plus im outa the house on the way to Mosk.
wth. Mosk was like, another motivational talk todae.. peeps were cryin everywhere.. cus the person up there talking was makin us realise all the time wasted .. yada yada.. and yeah.. got quite sad for a while.. i vowed neva to waste my time no more... see how it's gonna work. *smiles*
so yeah... all the way till 6 plus after that i slept. ahaks like a pig. till me dad woke me up.. ahahks.. in preparation for the fasting month i try to eat lesser by the time lah so that me inner processes in there dun get shocked by the sudden lack of food to digest. urgh. dun want gastric. that wld be the last thing i need.
and there goes my day. the rest of the time. online . bloggin. ahahks chatting. music. phira. deen. him. ahahsk thats all. for today. signing off, Faizal.
or at least that was what i hoped. but i just cldnt stop typing. i need to get this off my head. my chest. things been worryin me. i wanna be a good Liver. wadever. but i cldnt find ways.. i need help. i need to get my Life, first, back on track. ive been crossing roads so much that im not surprised that one day when both paths diverge ill be stuck in the mid, thinkig abt which to choose.
"When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you"
. sigh. Lord i need someone to tell me exactly that. when im down and sad. cus i badly need a shoulder to cry upon, when times get bad. cus time, as u all might noe.. waits for no man, and is not on my side nowadays. i gotta wrap up this secondary life soon, and prepare to start anew.. cus i cant depend on my friends all the time right people. i just wish someone out there wld say, "No Faizal. No". that i can stay on. but then again.. i cant hope that much, cos if one day im failed, betrayed by my hope.. i can just break down.. i need help. gosh. need help. so many crossroads in life. friend crossroads. JC choice crossroads. Life crossroads. someone pls provide me a signpost. show me the way. please?
Someone help this kid. he's losing himself by the day. dun get fooled by all the smiles and laughter. cus in him lies someone desperate to get out. someone please please please find Faizal back please. please. please...
11:59 PM
burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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