Aite..



today has been a very important juncture in my life.. mainly for these three reasons.



one: i appealed for a change in subject combination, Econs to Lit. Okay wait, hold your arguments first.. but ive been pondering this over since january and attempted to switch combis a few times, but guessed i could give econs a try, go with the flow kinda thing.. but hey hey hey.. my first test and i got like, lowest in class.. 3 out of 20 marks.. damnit.. and i dun get a single shit outa econs.. so yeah.. i know the chances of me changing classes if my appeal is accepted are high, according to Hao Jun Gor who also followed me to see Lai for the swictch of combi.. and i also know my chances of getting a switch is also damn low.. we'll wait for her reply.. till then..



two: i got into council.. damn.. aahks.. as much as i halfwished i din get in, well.. i got in, and when im in, im gonna give it my all.. 35 nominees got in, and i wld like to take this opportunity to congratulate the 35 who got in, and lets look forward to our first big fight within 4Th Council, and to those who din, cheer up, its not the end.. you can still contribute in many different ways.. there might be a reason why you din get chosen.. search for that reason and work on it, for you know that at the end of the day its mainly abt being a better person.. cheer up yall! and yeah.. life's gonna be hectic.. im so looking forward to that alrite.. argh.. also.. had a one-to-one talk with Mr Yeow.. lemme quote something from him : "Both led millions, Hitler by might but Gandhi by heart". This phrase goes a long way.. and i shall keep what he told me to myself.. looking forward to Council Training Camp this friday! and yeah, we could also do with a bigger council room you know, what with 35 councillors this time round. i say, why dun we knock down the wall between council room and lesnuoc?



three: spring sweet spring, has finally arrived. she was there and she was there when i asked her wether or not she was attached. not out of will, but cause the guys in my class dared me to ask her during PE wether shes attached.. and i foolishly complied, under extreme peer pressure and pure ego and pride, while the rest taunted me while i went to ask her, giggling behind me.. lol.. childish la you all.. in the end she said she wasnt, and oh how my heart leapt.. lol.. dun really wanna touch on this subject just yet.. wait on okay yall.. wait on..



okayla.. tired la sia.. just reached home at 10.. Phobos cheerleading.. lol.. kk.. nights!



11:39 PM
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so many things happened, like a leaf lost in a storm. to recount everything, would take me quite some time, but as much as i wanna relieve me of my stress right here on my beloved blog, i wld just wanna take this chance to say a couple.



elections, was not so well prepared i guess. there had been alot of rumors going around regarding me that i am very much aware of. i dare say these might be true, no matter how much i wish they wernt.



let just take em with a pinch of salt, faizal, cus you noe theyve got nuthing better to do. gee, go drown ur head in a fishbowl, ppl.



election day, was nuthing more that a bunch of nerves and nuthing less that a pain in my ass. sitting there for aeons long would very much contribute to my (arse) muscles.. and yeah.. what with all the forced smiles we had to painstakingly endure throughout the ceremony. sheesh.



and what irony.. a stupid joker foto of my lameass stupid face on the screen, while i delivered the seriousest of sermon speeches ever. roflmao. and the thing is, I HAVENT SEEN IT MYSELF. the agony, imagine.



hanging ard.. spent alot staying in fastfood restaurants with the usual gossip queens yanhong sarah sermin chaijun discussing all sorts of things under the sun..



bdae.. yeah.. quite a tremendous response frm the student body.. some ppl i dunnoe (yet) took the pain to begin a convie by wishing me the happiest of birthdays.. received a gift or two. i love the flower, val. thanks! to the 30 odd ppl who crammed by phone early in the morning the moment i woke up to wish me an exciting bdae ahead, i thank you all, thank you v much. XD including the late realisers, at night and the next day. XD



to those who understands my latest developments in life, - HOW I LOVE THURSDAYS, ESPECIALLY ECONS LECTURE AT LT4. how i look forward to it evertyme.. spring has come really early for me.. weeee..



confusion.. been thinking over this for quite some time.. never did i feel troubled over my choice of running for council. ever. had always been affirmative and strongheaded on my decision. but just a few days before the actual results, some factors cropped up, and shook me so hard and made me think twice abt council. who else cld have so much influcence over me, over the decisions i make in life? if you do, raise your hand and come straight to me and tell me so. cus i am very, very confused, and for the first time ever since the day i picked the council application form, i feel very scared as to the outcome of the elections. I would never sacrifice the one thing i hold so dear to me, and that is friendship in whatever length or form it takes. if i get into council tomorrow, and gain personal achievement at the expense of friendship, then truly, have i failed.



half of me wishes i dun get into council. i am that confused, ladies and gentlemen, so give me time and support to adjust and adapt to the changes in my life.



i would very much like to thank my ever so trusted confidant fang lu for going thru this with me, perhaps not in physique, but in spirit, for your guidance and advice has brought me thus far. without you i doubt my very confidance to pursue my dreams, and to your little moskito, tell him i said hi.



sigh.. how everyone else's lives move on without the slightest inkling that tomorrow, Monday, 24th April 2006, at 1730 Hours at LT5, the life story of a boy of seventeen, would change and configure a major part of his life. two roads lie waiting for him to choose, one - the hectic and structured life of a student councillor, and two - the life of a normal schoolboy, with so much more free time to commit to other things in life..



if i were him, how i wished i could choose the latter path. tho it might be victorious for me to get into council, i really hope and pray that whatever decision that was meant for me, be it SC or not, let it be a blessing, let it be the right one. At the end of the day, i decide what's best for me. Balancing between dreams and friends, family and faith, is very tough, but there can be miracles, when you believe.



In God I put my faith.

10:23 PM
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hmmz.. today i did something really meaningful.




something ive been wanting to do, vowed to fulfil, and have finally done.




i donated blood.




it was kinda exciting to look forward to. at first i signed up during lunch, took the form that requires you to answer the stupidest of questions, like did u pay money to have sex with a prostitute the last couple of weeks? lol. like duh~ =X then i ligned up, thinking that it wld take quite some time to finally reach my turn.


then qiqi called me


and said that i should be in lessons.


i was like.. shit.. okay.. cus i tot and i tot and i tot THAT that was the end of school already.


no wonder none of my class mates were around.. lol.. how idiotic i was..


so rushed over for compass period and pw.. so fun, we inquired our CT about his sexlife, marriage and stuff, made loottttsss of noise in class and had clean pure fun. the kids helped me brainstorm for rally ideas and they are so enthu and supportive of my lame rally antics.. they agreed to do things on my actual rally day. I LOVE 06s304!



ahaks.


then after sch finally went to donate blood. qiqi was there also.. we went togther thats why lol. anyway, she on the stretcher next to me.. and the fun begins to excalate.. lol.. ppl were CRyInG next to me.. and there i was luffing and getting excited for the donation.


so in all i got poked at thrice today


one for the "wether or not ur not ur iron level is enuf" blood test


one for the painkiller


and one for the real blood extraction.



and the needle? WAS FAT.






after that straight away went for council duties to lead cheers during the match. and they made me bear flags and RUN two rounds arnd the tracks bcos it so happened that MJ scored goals and when i was feeling damn numb and faint and have lost lik half my body's content of blood to save others.. giddy sia. damnit.


got home and here i am doing GP presentation, touch up on pre u seminar research, editting vetted proposal for student council and happy to know that the citibank thingy the straits times are rather happy with our proposal.


i say my thanks to all that are involved in the many projects that we are in together, and my apologies should i act rather differently these past week due to uncontrolled stress management and plain idocy, and fucked-up attitude.


once again, my deepest and sincerest apologies and thanks.


hope u got the drift.

10:49 PM
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ahks. council interview - intense. wenjian sure did help me alot during the interview. thanks bro. i know there are things i cant put on this blog for "council political reasons".. thanks once again nonetheless.


okay.. 60 ppl down for rallying and elections.. i dun care too much abt rallying for votes you know.. u vote me for who i am.. not because i urge the shit out of you to do so. mind you, if u do see a difference of attitude both on blog and in school, its becos i try to fucking relieve stress here in blog than in anywhere else. there u haf it. don't mind my politeness.


so the first meeting for council nominees and we're already dumped with a load of shit to settle. "as a test to gauge our leadership skills" .. load of bull to me.. so what we have to do is


1- set up a jumble sale
2- make a chocolate week. lol. of which im the in-charge.
3- assembly duties mines on 5th april
4- publicity. for ourselves. of which im rallying with qiqi
5- podium rally. mines on 17th april
6- cheering for the soccer matches.. XD
7- proposals proposals proposals.


i can almost die.



so many things in my hands.. Bio tut chem tut one two three four assignment one econs mindmap maths tut functions graphing and trigo pw PI GP presentation.


CIP youth for causes pre u sem council.






cmon big guy im sure you can do it.









hmm. i dun noe abt this.. but i thing i have finally changed. from what used to be someone hu takes every little friendship seriously, to someone who takes what comes and let go of things that leave..


or ..?






10:34 PM
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Lol this particular saturday ws set aside to haf beach fun with Sarah Sermin Jun Kwang Yu Quan and my new gurlfriend -lol- forgot what her name was..


btw.. sat alone at home.. doing Pre U seminar Shit.. doing Proposal for citibank Youth For Causes CIP.. yada yada..


the day bfore had parents' orientation.. was back up emcee, in case the actual one died halfway on stage then my turn to take over..


so today was rotting at home when sian wei called me to ask me return his white tee i borrowed for emcee back to him.. met up with him and that gay wenjian near my house there.. where fanglu oso live..


then we decided to eat at the nearby kopitiam.. called fanglu down to join us.. not bad quite fun..


ate prata and drank kickapoo. btw since i got into MJ i buy alot of kickapoo sia.. addicted le.. dunnoe why.. kick your poo..


so the four of us wenjian me sian and fang lu ate at kopitiam.. but lu neh eat cus she got dinner at home.. bla bla.. then we talked abt council..


so happened to know that ive made it thru the interview.. kewl.. wow.. joy.. yayayaa..


duno why but halfway i feel lost and regret doing the many things i wanna do..


yaya.

10:23 PM
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