so many things happened, like a leaf lost in a storm. to recount everything, would take me quite some time, but as much as i wanna relieve me of my stress right here on my beloved blog, i wld just wanna take this chance to say a couple.
elections, was not so well prepared i guess. there had been alot of rumors going around regarding me that i am very much aware of. i dare say these might be true, no matter how much i wish they wernt.
let just take em with a pinch of salt, faizal, cus you noe theyve got nuthing better to do. gee, go drown ur head in a fishbowl, ppl.
election day, was nuthing more that a bunch of nerves and nuthing less that a pain in my ass. sitting there for aeons long would very much contribute to my (arse) muscles.. and yeah.. what with all the forced smiles we had to painstakingly endure throughout the ceremony. sheesh.
and what irony.. a stupid joker foto of my lameass stupid face on the screen, while i delivered the seriousest of sermon speeches ever. roflmao. and the thing is, I HAVENT SEEN IT MYSELF. the agony, imagine.
hanging ard.. spent alot staying in fastfood restaurants with the usual gossip queens yanhong sarah sermin chaijun discussing all sorts of things under the sun..
bdae.. yeah.. quite a tremendous response frm the student body.. some ppl i dunnoe (yet) took the pain to begin a convie by wishing me the happiest of birthdays.. received a gift or two. i love the flower, val. thanks! to the 30 odd ppl who crammed by phone early in the morning the moment i woke up to wish me an exciting bdae ahead, i thank you all, thank you v much. XD including the late realisers, at night and the next day. XD
to those who understands my latest developments in life, - HOW I LOVE THURSDAYS, ESPECIALLY ECONS LECTURE AT LT4. how i look forward to it evertyme.. spring has come really early for me.. weeee..
confusion.. been thinking over this for quite some time.. never did i feel troubled over my choice of running for council. ever. had always been affirmative and strongheaded on my decision. but just a few days before the actual results, some factors cropped up, and shook me so hard and made me think twice abt council. who else cld have so much influcence over me, over the decisions i make in life? if you do, raise your hand and come straight to me and tell me so. cus i am very, very confused, and for the first time ever since the day i picked the council application form, i feel very scared as to the outcome of the elections. I would never sacrifice the one thing i hold so dear to me, and that is friendship in whatever length or form it takes. if i get into council tomorrow, and gain personal achievement at the expense of friendship, then truly, have i failed.
half of me wishes i dun get into council. i am that confused, ladies and gentlemen, so give me time and support to adjust and adapt to the changes in my life.
i would very much like to thank my ever so trusted confidant fang lu for going thru this with me, perhaps not in physique, but in spirit, for your guidance and advice has brought me thus far. without you i doubt my very confidance to pursue my dreams, and to your little moskito, tell him i said hi.
sigh.. how everyone else's lives move on without the slightest inkling that tomorrow, Monday, 24th April 2006, at 1730 Hours at LT5, the life story of a boy of seventeen, would change and configure a major part of his life. two roads lie waiting for him to choose, one - the hectic and structured life of a student councillor, and two - the life of a normal schoolboy, with so much more free time to commit to other things in life..
if i were him, how i wished i could choose the latter path. tho it might be victorious for me to get into council, i really hope and pray that whatever decision that was meant for me, be it SC or not, let it be a blessing, let it be the right one. At the end of the day, i decide what's best for me. Balancing between dreams and friends, family and faith, is very tough, but there can be miracles, when you believe.
In God I put my faith.
10:23 PM burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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