when trying to please two opposing parties, sitting on the fence will make your butt hurt like hell. so you let the fence open and allow the two to meet, hence reconciliating them both. but its so hard to get off that fence of judgement.



i remembered almost 22 months ago, on a fateful January 2005, i was given birth into the world of volunteerism, humanitarian work, and youth activism.. at that point of time, i did not noe the prospect of things to come, what would be of me, my destiny..



i was a meek sit-alone in-a-corner kid at that point of time in the orientation for noobies, but luckily there was this Brother who initiated a conversation with me, and hence i met the first friend, who then became my role model, and progressed to becoming my comfort zone, and then my mentor, in my new life as a da'i. i was indeed Blessed to have brother Mohksin..



back then, the faizal i knew found it very hard to attend the activites mainly because he couldnot get along with the syababs.. he confided in ppl.. like Kak Aishah.. and was soon growing attached to Fityan Ghufran, which very soon became his other-home, other-family, his blood. Ustaz Ahmad took him into his confidence, and eyed me as a potential leader..



it took me great consideration and pains to attend the activities, but never did once i rejected an invitation.. be it gatherings, barbecues etc..



bit by bit, the ice broke, and after 22 months, the ice finally melted and evaporated.



To recall what transpired at YIC would be very taxing, since im very bad at recollecting memories..



but i learnt a great deal of leadership.




- its never easy to reconcile two parties, but theres a reason why they approached you.

- with great power comes even greater responsibility

- self-reflection is VERY important. you might never know where u faltered, until you rethink and rethink of what happened.

- never lose faith, because your sisters and brothers will always be there to push you up and higher

- love, and be loved. i learnt the word Love in fityan deeper during YIC.

- always question your Niat or Intention to be on this path as a Da'i/Khalifah, and seek the meaning in prayers

last but not least

- when our hearts are aligned to God, then untiy will arise, and the beauty of doing God's mighty works on this earth will prove as beauty in everything else in life.



To ALL that were involved in the making and enliving of YIC 2006 - Ustaz Ahmad, Aishah, Helfy, Helmi, Hamzah, Fahmi, Ishak, Fathi, Zikry, Raudhah, Nadia, Liyana, Isa, Khairul, Azraie, Farzana, Haza, Fairoz, Khadija, Nazihah, Hanis, Khushairi, Isha, Farid, Syazwan, Suhailah, Nabila, Acap, Sarina, Jannah, Atiqah, and everyone that were in one way or another contributing to the roaring success of YIC


my deep-hearted gratitude to all of you for your faith and support, effort and hardwork.. and sincerest of apologies should there were any friction between anyone at all..


Someone once told me. Ramadhan is like a ship, bearing jewels to the brim. It comes and docks itself at our harbor every year, calling out to everyone to come to the ship and grab all the gems and jewels. pity, little do men know.. ramdhan departs at the end of the month and promises to return again next year, with the many jewels, but its about whether we can make it again to see it next year..


my brothers and sisters, do make full use of the last few days to seek God's forgiveness and His promise of the Night of Power.. Let the soul in you revive and rejoice in evocation of the Lord Almighty, for He hears even the whipers of your hearts. Pray for forgiveness, mercy, blessings, faith, constancy, guidance and light, and above all, pray that you will be able to see ramadhan and her jewels again next year.. ameen.

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burn! - 'cus the lovers of God are ablaze.
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